In this patriarchal society, it can be hard as a woman to ask for what she wants. Growing up, I could not see how I could assert myself. This behavior was not modeled to me. I grew up in a culture where the women are expected to be quiet and submissive. If I was not comfortable asserting myself, how could I make my own choices? Most of the time, I didn’t. What looked good to society ended up being my default, and I could not figure out why I was so miserable. Recently, through my spirituality, I have reflected that as a young woman, I felt uncomfortable because I had failed to recognize that the acceptable choices others made for themselves often did not resonate with me and who I was.
The classical piano clips used in the intro and outro of the above audio file are from taken from Chopin’s Nocturne in E flat major, Opus 9, Number 2, perfurmed by Aya Higuchi. The piano clip used in the interlude is taken from Chopin’s Waltz in A Minor, B. 150, also performed by Aya Higuchi. Both pieces are public domain and are from 501(c)(3) nonprofit Musopen.